THE REBEL - A POEM

Hey guys! So i wrote this poem around July/August when i was indecisive about a particular situation. Due to certain circumstances (mainly for my own good) i decided to take a step. Though i haven't been all steady, i know some day, my goal would be achieved.In the mean time, what do you think this was all about?

REBEL

It was scribbled throughout
I had totally surrendered
No longer in accord with my wishes
My center was hardened
I wasn't in pain nor frightful
Confidence wasn't stolen from me
I had totally surrendered
My build up caused me shame

'He should love you the way you are'
That was not my motivation
I needed to be happy
But i made me the reverse
I really was caught in a nest
How would i go about me?
I had totally surrendered
My build up caused me shame

I didn't think it would reoccur
I laid eyes on him for the first time
My center skipped
I was taken aback
He became my enzyme
He hid no truth from me
For us i started this journey
I have become REBELLIOUS